Weight a minute, You did what?

I have not written in a while. Not sure why but I have been busy recording in my personal private journal and so I have not had the stamina…mentally to do this as well. I have been home most of the week. I have been at home most of the weekend. I did go to…

Back in the groove and yes I am still alive

So I finally have been in the mood to actually sit down and type this blog. In general, my mood is so much better and holding its own. I am on half my medication and since it was reduced I have been using CBD oil every night. I am wondering if that is making a…

It’s the final countdown

 I am sitting here in class in advanced digital imaging. I am in the final stretch. I have ended up with four classes for this semester. Two are required for the degree…ie The algebra and Oceanography lab. I am also doing a class in architectural drawing so I can explore the idea of moving onto…

Driving Mr. Billy and Maxie on Broadway

I had a really rough week last week. As you could tell from my blogs I have been really struggling with anxiety. Lovie agreed to take a short road trip so that we could just have a change of scenery. We had to choose a fairly close radius because we were only going for one…

So proud!

We had our weekly chat with Mr. New York and he filled us in our his class that he is attending. He is doing this three-week intense scriptwriting class. He is the youngest person in the class, the only freshman. Most of his class mates seem to be grad students. He had to read his…

Trying to keep it calm

Yesterday was a pretty intense time at “Not Jean.”I left there ragged and I am struggling to dig myself out. I tried to stay quiet this morning. Chilling out and doing a few things on the internet. I spent last night drawing a new intricate design just to keep my brain occupied. I am supposed…

Rudderless and…….

So it is 12.45am and I am sitting here after a long boring weekend feeling so full of despair and emptiness. I know I sound melodramatic but that is how I really feel. So directionless. I just cannot seem to steer in a positive direction. I had a meeting with J the nutritionist on Friday….

One more and done.

The boy headed back to the Big Apple on Sunday. It is killing me. He is “home” safe and sound. He was so thrilled to finally have a refrigerator to himself. They had added a brand new fridge to his dorm. It is so important for kids to have food available especially when you do…