I can see clearly now..well for today at least

Tomorrow is time for my third iron infusion and I have done nothing but sleep since the last infusion and today I woke up with a little bit of my brain function working really well for a small window of time so I decided to take advantage of this rare opportunity and work on the…

Jitterbug

So here we go into another week. I was at home with my anxiety and stressful thoughts until my meeting with Not Jean. I am so rattled inside. Have you ever felt so jittery on the inside that you cannot function? I am in one of those zones at the moment. Too anxious to think…

Not as weird as it sounded

Last night I mentioned that I was falling asleep in the boy’s room. No, I am not sleeping in his room. I have converted it into an office for myself as I mentioned before and I was working on my laptop and falling asleep. I do find it comforting to be in here for sure….

The quiet life

The boy has been gone for 2 weeks now and life is settling into a weird groove. I am having such a hard time with the loss of our little family unit as it used to be. I know I have said it before but darn it is rough. I have been having very quiet…

Triggered me with Science

So tomorrow we will be home a week and I miss the boy so badly. Initially, it seemed like it would be ok….well acceptable I guess. I told myself that I could deal with it. I am trying, really trying but I am unraveling again. So sad tonight. I miss his face, I miss his…

Don’t go breaking my heart

Yesterday we moved the boy into his dorm yesterday morning. We found out that he was one of only 5 kids moving into that particular dorm. We pulled up in our Uber and unloaded everything and about 3 hours later everything was unpacked organized and ready for him to live his college life. The dorm…

New York state of mind….or is it denial

So the plane trip was not bad until we were about 15 minutes out and then the pilot said that there was severe wind turbulence at 8000 feet so we rocked and rolled for the next 10 minutes before we finally touched down. Then we sat on the runway for almost an hour because they…