The photo above was taken when I noticed this random tree trunk base as I was walking down the street today so I thought I would share. Today I decided to once again try a mindfulness women’s circle at the local Buddist prayer center. It was, to say the least….mmmm interesting. I am really not sure if this is for me. It involved meditation and then a circle introduction and activity about the circle of life and using medicine wheel. Here is a link to the information on a Medicine wheel. Very interesting.
We got to choose a card that spoke to us….mmm I wonder why this grabbed my eye So at any rate we were given a wheel to write on as we saw fit. I wrote my thoughts in the middle and then I struck on coming home that I should write the poem I wrote about Motherhood on the circle. So this afternoon I set aside time to go ahead and transfer the poem and then I decorated the outer limits into a mandala pattern as my own mindfulness exercise. Here is the end result.
I am trying to make an effort to get out of the house but I am a little unsure about this group being the right thing for me. I think I prefer the Restorative yoga.
My college classes are supposed to start on Monday but the Math teacher made the material available to us already. This class is really stressing me out and so I decided to get started this afternoon. I got into the groove and finished all of the homework exercises that are due up until Feb 8th. So far so good but we will see how long that lasts.
The boy was at work most of the day. It was supposed to be his last day but he is squeezing in one last shift on Monday. He then went out for dinner with one of his high school friends. Forget spending time with your parents the week before you leave. There is no time for that.
Well, here we go. Time is moving fast and furious. Tomorrow I have an appointment with the nutritionist and then I need to go and pick up a cake for the farewell party on Saturday. I heard that Sprinkles now makes full-size cakes so I hope that they are pretty good.
I am not that excited by the design above and I do not even have it attached to any product but it is was something to share. Half of it matches my mood…Black. I have anxiety strangulating me again today. It is once again that choking feeling I get when it feels like it has a stranglehold on me. It sits on my chest and feels like someone has a grip on my neck. It feels so bad that I imagine that if I could just vomit it would get rid of it. Now that is daft because that is not a solution. I am trying mindfulness again. So far not doing much good. That visit to “not Jean” just did not do it for me today. I am really not in the mood for this anymore. It is not helping me feel any better. I am thinking of just giving up on it. Not sure what I will do. At least I made it home without having a car crash this week. After the appointment, I went and pick up some milk tea for the family and I stopped off at the supermarket for a thing or two. I came home and finished off my essay for the English Class. It turns out I am registered for an honors class so I did not need any extra paperwork so the essay should count. I fought with the printer for about 45 minutes and I finally got it reconnected to the laptop to print out the essay to hand in tomorrow.
The boy is at a performing arts banquet at school this evening. I have started a habit of making extra meals for one when I am prepping dinner and putting them in the freezer. So I was able to pull a lasagna for one out of the freezer for the lovie tonight, I do not need dinner or feel like dinner so it is very handy to pull out a fully cooked (made from scratch ) meal and heat it up. Saves me cooking for one.
School is officially done tomorrow after my final and then I can spend the summer working on getting the business up and running. I have set up a separate checking account with all of my seed money in it. It is official I am now going to start keeping track of everything. I have attended this women’s mindfulness group that meets on a Thursday morning and now that I am free I think I need to go and pluck up the courage to maybe go and be with other women. We will see just how courageous I can be.
Oh well, hump day is over. Onward towards the weekend. Lovie and I have the weekend to ourselves because the boy is going on a senior retreat this weekend. Earlier that day he will be presenting his senior project. I might share the video if the video works for his presentation on Friday morning. They also have to go to Chapel for their final Senior Mass and prizegiving. Thanks for visiting. Sorry, it is all doom and gloom but I feel shit-tastic today.