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I finally put together a design for the first time in about 4-6 weeks. I loved these face elements that I had so decided to create this pattern. I am in love with these pseudo faces. I am glad that I at least got this done today otherwise I would be really useless. I did not make it to Michaels. I want to take the painting to be measured for a matte and it is cold and raining so I do not want it damaged. I actually got to sit at my desk today. It is funny that the house is always neat and tidy but my desk like my head is a jumbled mess. The kiddo went to work at 6am this morning. He has only four days of work left. He was home for a little bit of time and then he was gone again with his friend from high school. Lovie and I decided to go out to dinner. Most Saturdays I am a…”Nah!  not this week person but tonight I thought we might as well get out of the house. So we decided to wing it and go to this Thai place that we like in a nearby town. We figured that if it was busy we could go to the Japanese place in the same complex. We got this at the perfect time and were seated right away.

sata2I ordered the chicken satay appetizer as my meal. It was really lovely. I had lychee tea. I have not had it in ages. I can no longer tolerate things being that sweet. I kept cutting it with water to make it more palatable. I am so ticked at myself. I pulled on a nice new sweater to go out to dinner and I, of course, spilled peanut sauce on myself. I hope to goodness it is not ruined. I have this thing about clothes and stains. If it has even one speck that will not come out I will never wear it again. If I can see it on the front of my shirt I cannot deal with it. It is in the wash right now. I hope that it is ok because I wanted to wear it on the plane to New York because it is really cozy and has a shearling lined hoodie. Dinner was nice but the food is really bothering me at the moment. I have been missing my 1000-1200 calorie goal and the moment I do that I gain weight. The nutritionist always says that it is because my body goes out of starvation mode and panics because it anticipates the next time it will be starved. She also says that if I just concentrated on nutrition it will adjust itself. I know that my nutrition is atrocious at the moment and it did show up in my last bloodwork. I am so washed out again and the sleep issues are not helping. I feel like a fat blob. Terrified of the 10-12lb weight gain of last year.  I feel like a nap about 2 hours after I wake up  Crazy huh! Now we are home and I am watching mindless youtube while typing this blog. Mindless youtube is sometimes a good thing. I am really an odd cookie. I love watching Aussie crime shows, British vloggers, Woodturning(yes I said woodturning), music from Evan Hanson and fat people. You cannot get more varied than that. LOL.

Well, stay warm and happy weekending.

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Grilled Lambchop and rice

This is not a food blog but I had to share this because it was so yummy to have a lamb chop for the first time in a long time. The kiddo was out until midnight so lovie and I went to dinner at a local little Japanese restaurant. The lamb chops were an appetizer and so I limited myself to just one chop and half of the rice. The rest will be dinner tonight. I can never allow myself to eat all the dinner. Not going to happen. I also had a small order of avocado roll. We came home and watched a movie until the boy graced us with his presence.

 

 

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Warrior Roll

 

Today I spent the day finishing that ridiculous cartoon for my class and doing the laundry. It is done, it is imperfect and I do not care. I just got my grade back on that walking rotoscope video I shared a few weeks ago and I got 95% so this one will have to do. All of my English is done for the semester so I can chill out and spend time on designs for the next few weeks. The boy is out filming today. Last night I was so ticked. He was up in the Santa Cruz mountains behind the school with his friends. I cannot stand it when they go up the mountain because the road is very windy with steep dropoffs. Teenagers.Arghhh It ruined my evening because it made me very anxious again. I am struggling today. I did try and work on my penny-farthing design for the competition to try and keep my mind off of the boy and his shenanigans. Tonight we have to put our foot down and make him commit to a college. I will lose my shit if he tries to weasel out of committing to a school. He needs to pay his deposit. I do not want him waiting until the last night. That is inevitably a drama because the computers normally crash due to volume. I will keep you posted. Happy Sunday and have a wonderful, fabulous and fantastic week. Can you believe it is almost May already?