Rough Day!. I sure hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am in such a ditch at the moment. I have been down in the dumps for about a week now. I am so glad I saw my therapist today.  I have been trying to go every second week but I have been back to once a week. I am figuring it out slowly but surely. I think I really realized today that the reason why I am having a hard time is because I am finally feeling instead of shoving things down with food. When you have always pushed everything away with food it is a big adjustment. I at least know now what is going on. I am so nervous about my finals for my class. I have to keep reminding myself that it is community college, I am a 50 year old woman and I am doing this because I want to. I take it so seriously you would swear I had a career riding on it. I do want my own business and this is just fine tuning my skill but I really need to get a grip. I said that this blog would be an interesting ride. Never a dull moment living in my head. I am very happy to say though that I have started walking again and that good feeling is back. It is a weird peace that helps calm me when I am overwrought. I like to stop somewhere on the route to meditate on my calm app. It always centers me a little along with my calming symphony  music.  It really helps as well to see these beauties on my walk.