Boots and Baristas…Twelve days and counting.

img_0563No one has ever had as much fun in a part-time job as much as this guy. He cracks me up. He loves going to work every day and the people at work have been teaching him to be a Barista which is funny because his job finishes tomorrow. If I had to get up at 4:45am to go and make avocado toast for overprivileged brats or wash dishes I would be less than pleasant. He does not even leave when his shift is done so he can hang out with the people that work there.

Yesterday he finally got his dorm assignment. He is thrilled with the assignment. He is getting to live his dream. He will actually be living on Broadway in the artsy farty dorm building. He will find his tribe for sure. He has a two-person room so he only has to share a bathroom with one guy. The only worry is that there is no dining hall in that building and I do not trust him to eat enough. His skinny butt cannot afford to miss meals. He has to go to other buildings to get dinner. aa6ffa18-2cd9-4a4f-842d-c65af18528fbWe had to buy a few items of clothing for ourselves and so I got to buy snow boots for the trip. Actually nice and warm and I could probably use them here for the rainy season.

I actually got to sleep before midnight last night and I slept until 6 am and then I actually fell asleep again and then woke up at 10:45am. I feel a little human again but that churning anxiety is still under the surface…bubbling like hot lava. I want to go out this afternoon and buy the paper goods and snacks for his farewell party on Saturday. We are moving it to my sister’s house because it makes it easier for everyone. That way nana and papa do not have to travel here if it is raining. We booked our hotel last night. Nice and close to the dorms. We will be able to go shopping for necessities. His dorm room has even got place for a fridge and microwave. I think he has more closet space in that room than he has here at home. I told lovie that we did not need to do any touristy stuff but I think I want to go to MJ Trimmings again. That store is AMAZING. Walls and Walls of ribbons and patches and buttons…heaven. img_8393

Darn, this is tough on a parent. We are taking the strain. I know his dad is feeling it too. You raise them to leave but shit it is harder than you think. I wish I would have known this years ago. “Actual” Jean told me to be prepared two years ago but I wish I had known this 8 years ago. I know that I have made changes to have something for myself and I am still struggling. I am almost finished with my Digital Art and Animation degree and I am trying to formulate a way to get this business idea of mine off the ground. It is all stuttering and spluttering but I think I can get there eventually. Yesterday I started looking at some math classes on Khan Academy. I am amused at the prospect of actually having to pass two math classes in the next two semesters if I want to finish this degree. Heaven help me and my live-in tutor. Mr “Three degrees from MIT” has his work cut out for him. LOL.

I have been watching the weather in Manhattan and I have noticed that it is getting colder and colder. Oh Lord, this is going to be fun.



Starry Starry Night- My blue period…LOL


Ok, It is not a blue period just a blue day. I have been going around in circles on the ShopVida site. They did not update their hi Res instructions, so I spent the whole afternoon fixing it. The pictures above are not a triptych just three separate scarves that I have for sale on ShopVida.comTeal Feather Studios.  I also complete a few more designs today. There is never a dull moment in my head. LOL. Tomorrow it will probably be something completely different, or possibly I should think about finishing off that Neruda essay for my English class just in case it counts towards my grades. I actually purchased a few scarves to add to my inventory because they had a 50% off coupon for today.  That is my modus operandi at the moment. I stock up whenever I have a good coupon. I am using them to stock the stall, and I am also building stock for approaching different stores and maybe having stalls at different markets.

I took the car to the Lexus dealership this morning. The guy was accommodating and he has set up everything, and he is taking the car in tomorrow morning, and the other guy’s insurance is picking up the tab for a rental car. The guy at the dealership thinks it will take a month. Very annoying. I hope Hertz is not going to give me a bubble car tomorrow.  The anxiety has been palpable again today, but I keep trying to stay positive. I have had a stomach ache today. Well, it is not really an ache but what I call Cdiff pain. I was left with this pain when I  recovered from a CDIFF infection 4 years ago. Every few months if I eat the wrong thing I get this same pain. Years ago I went to the ER twice not knowing what it was, but now I know it will pass after a few days. Most likely this was caused by our lovely dinner on Saturday night. That was more food than I usually eat so I am guessing that and possibly beef cross-contamination caused it. Just a minor inconvenience.

Tomorrow we will be married 19 years. I can really say that they have been 19 wonderful years. We have been blessed with more good days than bad. More ups than downs. In the 19 years, the worst crisis we had was me almost kicking the bucket due to not having enough sense to be healthy. We also were never able to have another baby, but the one we had is our million dollar kiddo…in more ways than one.LOL. He is our pride and joy. I love my life with this man, and it is so good to be loved and adored by your husband…the feeling is mutual. We are both nerds, oddballs and a little weird but that is why we work so well together. We compliment each other’s quirks. We are approaching an empty nest in 7 months time, and I am starting to enjoy exploring the possibility of a little design business and taking great pleasure in the experiment. It keeps the sadness at bay most days.


May 22nd, 1999

Tomorrow I want to share this beautiful poem written by my kiddo. I have been asking him to email me with it all day, but he is a little preoccupied with recording his songs for his senior project that he has to present at school next week. I am so proud of the effort he has put into the production of this music. It is a hobby that he has had for years, and now he is using it as his senior project. If he gives me permission, I might share a song or two once the project has been presented….but I am not making any promises.

Well, thanks for stopping by. Tomorrow night is the final presentation of the annoying digital animation project…let it be over already. I hope that you all survived Monday. I am sitting here watching Dirty Dancing while working on my projects. I am going to be dancing in my sleep tonight. I hope that your week will be productive. See you tomorrow.