I have not been active…if you have noticed but it is because of the anxiety that has been driving me crazy and making me feel hopeless. I have had a quiet week at home and I spent time making some interesting items for the flea market tomorrow. I am going to try it for the first time. They have this major fleamarket at DeAnza College in Cupertino. I hear that this might be a viable option. I have been systematically cleaning out all of the closets in the house. I redid my closet and threw away unnecessary items. My sewing items are all now organized. I cleaned out and tidied the garage and overflow food pantry. Wow, I threw away tons of expired food. I then moved onto the hall closet. That has been streamlined. Tell me how a boy who lives in California has 9 jackets. I then moved onto my pantry. I ordered 20 mason jars on Google express and I cleared out the pantry…again …expired food coming out of my ears. That has been cleared and now I have put everything in bottles. I will post a picture once the organization is done. I decided to look around the garage for items that I have made so I will be taking a few items to the flea market tomorrow. I found dolls, baby toys and other items to take tomorrow. I was also bored so I decided to spend a day at home quietly making greeting cards from scraps that I have around the house. I ended up making almost 30 greeting cards with reusing cards etc. I think that they are really nice. I found ribbon in the clearance bin at Joann’s fabrics. I found a bunch of “Frozen” and “minion” ribbon and in the spirit of keeping busy, I managed to make 20 bows. I have never made hairbows on barrette clips before but I think that they are very cute. I got glue on my Lululemon pants but I managed to iron it off so it was not as disastrous as it could have been.
I have to be there at 6:30am…yikes.
I have not been posting very much because I have not been up for doing much of anything. The paralyzing anxiety has been getting the better of me. Of course, it would be great if I still had Jean to help. I can honestly say that the new therapist is back to being “not Jean”. My husband looked at me struggling with something the other day and said.,…”I bet that you wish that Jean was here” Heck yeah. I could always rely on her to help me figure things out. I never like messing with medication but I decided I might need a change as I am barely functional some days. My memory is shot to hell because I am so anxious all of the time. I must say going to yoga twice a week is good for my mind, body, and soul. One class is Restorative yoga and the other is Yin Gentle I will try and go more once things settle down. The anxiety has been so trying that I decided to give CBD oil a try…..well actually I bought gummies for this company Purekana. I will let you know what I think. I took one this evening after a very anxious day and two lorazepam yesterday. I might be imagining it but I am feeling a little more mellow this evening. This is not an endorsement but just information on where I got the gummies. https://purekana.com/products/cbd-vegan-gummies-25mg-each/
I have started working on fall designs but I am reluctant to actually make any until I get some sales from my existing inventory.
Oh well. Here goes nothing. Hopefully, I will have enough energy to report back on the results of the flea market jaunt. https://www.deanza.edu/fleamarket/