So as Lanibeth says…today is day 3. I woke up a little earlier today thinking that maybe I was feeling a little better but as the day dragged on I was getting more and more anxious. I tried to keep busy. I had left over mashed potato and I added salmon, egg and cheese. I…
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The TealFeather Studio has docked
So last Monday the box arrived. I was all excited and then I did a crash and burn. I put too much stock in weird shit sometimes. I have wanted this thing for so long and finally spent more than I did on my first car to find I was paralysed with fear and claiming…
Back in the groove and yes I am still alive
So I finally have been in the mood to actually sit down and type this blog. In general, my mood is so much better and holding its own. I am on half my medication and since it was reduced I have been using CBD oil every night. I am wondering if that is making a…
Trying to keep it calm
Yesterday was a pretty intense time at “Not Jean.”I left there ragged and I am struggling to dig myself out. I tried to stay quiet this morning. Chilling out and doing a few things on the internet. I spent last night drawing a new intricate design just to keep my brain occupied. I am supposed…
One more and done.
The boy headed back to the Big Apple on Sunday. It is killing me. He is “home” safe and sound. He was so thrilled to finally have a refrigerator to himself. They had added a brand new fridge to his dorm. It is so important for kids to have food available especially when you do…
So here we go again
Well, four weeks have come and gone so fast and tomorrow we have to say goodbye again. I really hate this, Talk about a Summer romance. Oh to be young and in love. Those two lovebirds made good use of the four weeks. I am so sad that we have to say goodbye again. No…
Know when to fold em!
Yesterday Nana and I did something we have not done in a very long time. We got in the car and went somewhere new. I realize how much my anxiety and depression robs me of lovely days like yesterday. I picked Nana up at 11 am and we went to Morgan Hill to stroll…
Postcards from the edge
So I turned some of our vacation photos into a fabric pattern for a vintage postcard competition at Spoonflower.com. I added various filters to my photos until I got the desired effect of making them look like old fashioned postcards. I was very happy with the final result. I ordered some fabric so I can…
One line and I am fried
So this is not going to be very long. It is 2:30am and I cannot eat. For the past few weeks, I have been reigning in the anxiety monster. The trip was one of the best weeks I have had in a long time with the exception of that last flight. That terrified all-consuming angst…
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