Motherhood and losing you

So two in two days. Wow…that is a first in a long time. I do not know how long this one will be but I feel the urge to share this feeling. So I have come to the conclusion that to just be a mother while your kids are growing up is the dumbest idea…

Floundering in an emotional pit

Oh lord the joys of motherhood. Or should I say the sadness of realizing that it is well and truly gone. The chicken has really flown the nest and it is what it is. As you know the boy is home from college this week and it was as I expected but it is still…

He is leaving on a Jet Plane

So tomorrow will be here in a few hours and I am a confused mess of emotions. Since the end of last year, I started having weird and conflicted issues with him being 18 and technically a grown man. Then his birthday arrived and I realized that apart from his newfound penchant for minor rebellion…

3……..

So today is Friday and so we have three days to go. We have been piling all of the kiddo’s stuff on the dining room table. Tomorrow we will start packing.  I have been so shut down about this for over a week and today it is getting too real. I went to Restorative Yoga…

Not perfect but better

So this is the table that has been tweaked, I think that it is more attractive now. I also received new scarves and purses. The ones that I had hope would be here have not arrived yet. My anxiety is still stifling. I had a good long chat with not Jean on Wednesday. She has…

Overthinking it

I am busy trying to rework my scarf display for the farmers market on Saturday. It is a work in progress. Set up in my dining room working it again and again until it looks like I want it to look. I want it to be eye catching so that they see the colors and…