Here’s your hat

Today it will be the 4th iron infusion for me. I think I might be feeling a little joy from the infusions. I have been avoiding Yin Yoga because I was embarrassed about sitting down halfway through the class last time I was there. I can am such an idiot sometimes. I did not want…

Savage Sadness

Happy Tuesday! Well as happy as I can make it I guess.  I am just feeling so bummed since the boy’s birthday. He was so busy living his life we barely got a chance to even speak to him on his birthday. I can honestly say it has really affected my mood. I am sad…

Happy Birthday 2567 miles away

Yeah Yeah Yeah! I know I am not supposed to look at “where is my iPhone” but Happy Birthday to my sweet boy. Behave and have fun. We love you very much. This is the first time we have been away from him on his birthday. I am sure he is fine but my heart…

I can see clearly now..well for today at least

Tomorrow is time for my third iron infusion and I have done nothing but sleep since the last infusion and today I woke up with a little bit of my brain function working really well for a small window of time so I decided to take advantage of this rare opportunity and work on the…

Triggered me with Science

So tomorrow we will be home a week and I miss the boy so badly. Initially, it seemed like it would be ok….well acceptable I guess. I told myself that I could deal with it. I am trying, really trying but I am unraveling again. So sad tonight. I miss his face, I miss his…

New York state of mind….or is it denial

So the plane trip was not bad until we were about 15 minutes out and then the pilot said that there was severe wind turbulence at 8000 feet so we rocked and rolled for the next 10 minutes before we finally touched down. Then we sat on the runway for almost an hour because they…

3……..

So today is Friday and so we have three days to go. We have been piling all of the kiddo’s stuff on the dining room table. Tomorrow we will start packing.  I have been so shut down about this for over a week and today it is getting too real. I went to Restorative Yoga…