Rudderless and…….

So it is 12.45am and I am sitting here after a long boring weekend feeling so full of despair and emptiness. I know I sound melodramatic but that is how I really feel. So directionless. I just cannot seem to steer in a positive direction. I had a meeting with J the nutritionist on Friday….

So here we go again

Well, four weeks have come and gone so fast and tomorrow we have to say goodbye again. I really hate this, Talk about a Summer romance. Oh to be young and in love. Those two lovebirds made good use of the four weeks.  I am so sad that we have to say goodbye again. No…

Motherhood and losing you

So two in two days. Wow…that is a first in a long time. I do not know how long this one will be but I feel the urge to share this feeling. So I have come to the conclusion that to just be a mother while your kids are growing up is the dumbest idea…

Mother’s day

Today was a little bittersweet. My baby did text me at least to wish me Happy Mother’s day. I missed him very much and feel very weepy.We got the laundry done this morning and then we headed down to spend the afternoon with nana. We stopped to get flowers and this is the greeting I…

Get your motor running…I hope it happens soon

Firstly, Happy Belated Valentines Day. We just stayed home last night because you know….We are getting old and we have been married for almost 19 years. We are going out to dinner tomorrow night. Below are the beautiful roses that lovie brought home. I always had a tradition on getting him See’s candy for Valentine’s…

Here we go again

So I found the photos that I had taken of the room after my mini office conversion. It is working out very nicely. The desk is perfect for my laptop and the new Cricut machine. I can also push the Cricut back under the shelf and remove my laptop if I want to sew. What…

Anxiety and Panic is hell

I have been besides my self with severe anxiety and sadness over the past 4 days. These times attack with a vengeance. The past three years have been so taxing when confronted with this affliction. It turns my life upside down. I literally cannot cope with the simplest of things. It is so ridiculous to…