Jitterbug

So here we go into another week. I was at home with my anxiety and stressful thoughts until my meeting with Not Jean. I am so rattled inside. Have you ever felt so jittery on the inside that you cannot function? I am in one of those zones at the moment. Too anxious to think…

Triggered me with Science

So tomorrow we will be home a week and I miss the boy so badly. Initially, it seemed like it would be ok….well acceptable I guess. I told myself that I could deal with it. I am trying, really trying but I am unraveling again. So sad tonight. I miss his face, I miss his…

Overthinking it

I am busy trying to rework my scarf display for the farmers market on Saturday. It is a work in progress. Set up in my dining room working it again and again until it looks like I want it to look. I want it to be eye catching so that they see the colors and…

It’s too peopley out there

I found this shirt on Zulily today that says “Stay Home it is too Peopley out there” I could not have said it better. I went and did the farmers market today. I do not know if I can handle this. It was so agonizing and nervewracking for me. More than once I could have…

Anxiety and Panic is hell

I have been besides my self with severe anxiety and sadness over the past 4 days. These times attack with a vengeance. The past three years have been so taxing when confronted with this affliction. It turns my life upside down. I literally cannot cope with the simplest of things. It is so ridiculous to…

Bang Bang

I must be honest I have been a little lax with the blogs but for no real reason. Just caught up in doing nothing..LOL. Now things are settling down. I got my grade back from my Honors English class and it was an A. Now I can go ahead and enjoy summer and concentrate on…

But I had a vision

“You are not wearing jeans to the final Senior mass at school. I am putting my foot down.”” But mom I have a vision for the style I had in mind.” Sure enough, I came down this morning and who is sitting here in black jeans and a tuxedo jacket and Chelsea boots. Yeah, you…